wonderingi sit here alone thinking of what went wrong..
lost in thought i begin to cry
wondering why i was such a fuck up..
wonder why i just couldn't be what you wanted
wonder why it had to be so hard
wondering why you all lied to me
wondering if you like to see my this way..
im alone i was always alone..
unwanted and rejected by the world..
i sit in the dark and cry
knowing things will never be ok
knowing things will never be the same
knowing you dont care about me anymore
wondering if you ever cared..
unloved and having no reason to live..
i write my final words to you
wondering if you will ever read them
full of hurt and heart break
as i put the gun to my head
i shed a final tear and pull the trigger
no longer suffering
no longer hurting
finally ok again
safe in my grave..