breaking down

please..dont act like you care..
dont attempt to be my light
don't try to make all my pain go away..
don't try to tell me everything will be alright..
don't tell me to stay alive a little longer..
don't say what im doing to myself is stupid
don't pretend you've been where i am
you'll never understand..
no one will....
im alone in this world..
nobody to stand beside me..
nobody to share my pain and distress with
no true  place to call home
no reason to be here
you didn't think anything would be this imperfect
were lost
we spend all our lives  searching for ways to feel
ways to feel alive...
our heart beat isn't enough...
sometimes it requires self inflicted pain....